Today, I am feeling a bit down. I guess I just need to vent. I have been trying and trying and trying to be the bigger the person and kill her with kindness and for over a year and half now... yet, still I get nothing in return. It breaks my spirit down and I seem to dwell on this issue everyday. I try and take everyones advice and just forget about it. Not everyone is going to like you but I just can't give up! I refuse to give up when I know what the benefits are to everyone getting along and co-parenting. I refuse to settle or back down even though I'm getting a big slap in the face every time I reach out.
I wish she would notice how much time and extra effort I'm putting in with the kids and helping her out. You would think I would get the respect I deserve but sadly I don't. I wrote many a email reaching out to her to talk and get past whatever it is she is holding against me and she ignores me time and time again. I refuse to give up because this is my life! I have to deal with her for the rest of it. I want peace! I want to feel comfortable at the kids activities. I want normalcy. This has me at my wits end. Don't know why I keep trying or care so much....Feeling hopeless....
