The 1st encounter-Tayva's Preschool Graduation..

 The kids eating dinner at Cameron's football practice before we head off to Tayva's Preschool Graduation..

 Watching our girl sing her songs and getting her diploma..

 The Graduate with her bouquet of Blow Pop's..

 Pictures with Daddy and all her brothers..

We get the kids every Tuesday and Thursday night and Tayva's Graduation happen to fall on one of those days.. So we got ready and picked up the kids and ran through McDonalds and went over to Cameron's football practice to eat. We then headed over to Tayva's school for her graduation. I was filled with anxiety.. You see this would be my first encounter with the EX (aka the kids mom) WARNING: This Blog is about to get very REAL! I had in my head how it would go....I would walk up to her and introduce myself to her and she would want to meet the person who cares for her kids, feeds her kids and drives her kids around and gives her weekly breaks..(Keep in mind I don't get those breaks ever).. I would if I was in her position and have done it in the past with my Ex's girlfriends. I come from a divorced family where everyone gets along and all my parents go to events and even get together on some occasions. That is what I'm used to and that is what I want for our family. I want the kids to feel like they don't have to take sides and can see ALL their parents get along and come together for their functions.... BUT BOY WAS I DEAD WRONG! After the graduation we went out to where the kids were and I noticed she was with Tayva taking pictures so we respected her time with her and when she was done we got our pictures and then came the moment... I saw an opportunity and we made eye contact and I started to walk over and had my hand out and she turned and walked away and even did a little shimy of some sort while walking away.. and that was that! The first snub of many more to come. I understand some people are different but I'm really having such a hard time with this because it is not in my nature at all to be mean or unkind to people. especially people I'm going to have to deal with for the rest of my life. I feel like if she would just give me a chance she would see who I really am. I guess all I can do is be the best wife and mother I can be and maybe one day things will get better. This is all so new to me, being a step mom or bonus mom as I like to call it and dealing with an ex.. It's hard... I just need to keep being myself and remember that not everyone in life will like me no matter how hard I try.. That second one is hard for me..

May 2012